New chapter in my life

The journey of my life is too short. It's been a long period of time i open this blog.. Reading back my old memories, worries and cherries... Well yes i am in the new chapter of the my own book. I created my own story, my own path and my own strategy of life. Nevertheless only one remained until now is God. I've been through lots of pain and gain strength. To be who i am today is a miracle. It is my life tought me how to stand on my own. Even the world will fall apart, i am still what i am and only me can change who i am now. I am not in the perfect condition now for human, but still i am still here and still breathing. I have to face lots of dramatically life and sorrow, besides i still have my little precious happiness that can cure all the pain inside me. Be strong person is who i am now. Not strong enough to be the strongest man in the world but enough just for me and my space. Heart still beating, my soul still praising. God hear my prayer always.

a Feeling

When it start came and I feel like wanna DIE... Ouch what a word. simply saying a word that may be can come true as a prayer? The words easily came out from this mouth then why would mind completely run different good think. As I look back myself, I'd like to say Oh I am not that good speaker. My mind can think a thousand answer but my mouth can't speak the real thing inside me. Feeling like it's been blocked by something that I can't figure out where it's came from. It's weird! Still I am thinking what will happen sooner or later.... The answer is from the deep of own heart.

Through...~~~

Words can be describe as weapon

Through the faith and learning

Simple life can be describe as lesson

Through happiness and sadness

True friend can be describe as enemy

Through the truth and believing

Love can be describe as wisdom

Through whispering and eyes

Bad feeling coming from dark thinking

Through words and faith
At the same time everything is different

Life cannot be simplify by words

Through meaning and doing

Did i mention about time?

Time can be describe as moment

Through history and future

All in same subject

Cannot be ignored by you

God is always there

Through all the time and all life

Thanks for being you...

Beautiful

Beautiful moment is when with a beautiful heart

A heart from someone got beautiful personality 

A personality that came from beautiful mind 

A mind that contribute beautiful memory

Memory that bring beautiful energy

Energy that can create such beautiful things

Things that can make a beautiful love

Love that can complete a beautiful life

~ No matter what everything is beautiful if we make it beautiful ~

Weird feeling...

It came without no sign

It came without no sound 

It came without no warning 

It came without no protection

To eyes shall it begin? 

To ears shall it starting? 

To mind shall it remind? 

To heart shall it deliver? 

Then why the weird feeling coming? Through night and silence dream... passing through the darkness moment... trying to figure out where it showing the truth? It is reality or fantasy of helpless regret? In a meantime where all are gone... so cloudy and temper second... to whom shall it be blame? for nothing or something hoping... wishing all going to be pure... praying everything going to be nice and tender... a feeling where can't be express by pretending... true deep meaningful feeling... what a silky gift...~

A moment to be happy...

If we ask ourselves when is the last moment we are very happy? I rather answer for myself it has been a long long time ago.

Happiness is not easy come to our life. Furthermore the moment we are happy with our family and friend is really different than the moment we are together with the person we care more and the person is the one you giving your heart with. Happiness with our own family is SATISFACTION. Happiness with our friend is SUCCESS. If we think more what is happiness in our LOVE relation what would be your best answer for you? I rather answer is a SACRIFICE. 

A moment to be happy? which part came 1st in your mind? Family? Love ones? Close friends?

I rather answer for myself is "Love ones"! Doesn't mean that I don't care about family and friends but still our family and friends will never leave us and our happiness with them is not for a moment, but it grows more better each day in our life. 

The word LOVE... is all about our Love ones... a moment we sharing our happy time is the most precious and memorable thing in our life. So why don't we keep enjoy our time with our love ones while we still in LOVE with him/her. Why don't we make it perfectly joyful and cool? Create a happy moment with our love ones while we are understanding, loving and wanting each other. Make it the most unforgettable moment in our life for sharing a HAPPY time with him/her. You will never regret if we did make our love ones smile for a whole time we spend together. 

A bit of sad, a drop of tears, a scanty of fight, a small of problems and a little of complicated = million billion trillion infinity of HAPPY MOMENT.

WHEN...

When one love found new love will become ONE

When the feeling same for both then it is good to listen to own feeling~listen to your heart

When the happiness came from two heart beat make it appreciated

When two doesn't aware of moon or sun make it long lasting

When heart never lies make it happen for both feeling

When LOVE exist make it more tender and for real~make it never ends

When tears falling down for one love make it better gone by gone

When hurt trapping the love make it feeling better~be aware

When truth is lying make it die

When LOVE is not around make it history~endless love

When heart knew it will never be forever make it forgotten forever

Trust n Promise

Trust?
~How to trust someone new person in our life?
~How can we trust the person that never trust us?
~How can we rebuild trust with the person betrayed us?
~How can trust be a pass for our happiness?

 Do u know that trust came from promise? Person easily made promise but never think if we break our promise what will happen with the person we promised? Exactly TRUST is the answer.
~Should i trust him/her after what he did to me?promise is just fake!
~How can he/she do that to me after i fully trust him/her for that stupid promise!
~I will never trust him/her after he/she broke our promise!NEVER!
~I will never happy if i can't trust him/her anymore. What if our next promise he/she will do the same thing?

Question will be answered by question. Because of that, why don't we reflect back what we doing with others. Don't blame others if we did the same mistake. Don't easily made promise but then we break it easily. Nobody can live with the person he/she never trust. Before that trust our self first before we trust other.

Thing we never realize

Boy: Girl u makes me sick! I'm sicked of u and now i want to break up with u!

Girl: Why? What's wrong with me? I love u so much and i care for u...

Boy: Your jealousy made my friends keeping away from me. I'm sicked with u! And now this is the end... we are END here! Stop calling me and don't ever try to get close to me. It's over and good bye!

The boy walked away and leaving the girl crying alone. A thousand tears doesn't change a thing. No more chance and no more LOVE between two hearts.

~After 2 years~

Boy: Hi... we meet here... I can't believe i almost didn't recognize u. u look... u look... so different!

Girl: Excuse me.. who are u?

Boy: It's me... boy! your ex-........?!

Girl: Oh i am sorry i almost didn't recognize about u cause everything has been forgotten. I am changed! And so do u. Please excuse me. 

The girl walked away. 

~ Value of the story: Don't leave the person u once love in a bad situation.. things will come back to u and will be regretted all the time for the rest of your life.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iLurjWrHKYQ

When I looked on the other side...

I was sitting inside the car and looking outside, late at night there was bunch of kids wandering around. I wonder why they are still awake in a cold late night. My eyes suddenly focusing on both of their feet without slipper or shoe. Dressed with short pant and shabby clothes.

I still can looked clearly with the street light they are begging to someone whom passing by the road. I was so shocked by them. It's a real story in front of me now. I can see with my own eyes they are begging and hoping that someone would give them some peso.

In the morning, when I went out from the hotel three kids came in front of me begging for money. My guide scolded them for come near to me and my friends. I felt sympathy with all the kids but still i have to moved on. I almost cry that time.

When i looked on the other side, I'm so grateful that i was born here in my country. Even though my life is just simple but still my childhood is more better than the poor kids out there.  

Love Nature

One cold night i walked on the street. It's nearly midnight and i can heard some sound of insects whispering on the grass. All around me was so clear with the light of the moon covered my way. I looked up at the sky and hoping no rain will fall on my head. I just can see a million star keep waving on me.

It is good to walk after the rain stopped. The wind keeps blowing on my face and brushing my hair. My body shivering a little bit but i keep on moving with my heart full of joy. I can feel my energy getting high and my walk became more faster. I can feel all around me was so clean and nice.

 The pine trees growing happily as it was like dancing with the sound of the wind. I can't get my eyes away from the blooming roses. White remember me of pure and clean love. Red remember me of long lasting and true love. Pink remember me of joy and cheer love. When all became one it became harmony and blessed forever. 

As a nature keeps on attracting, as a love keeps on amazing, as a destiny keeps on waiting, as myself keeps on walking.

MIRACLE

Do miracle really exist?

It is time to reflect our mind for what we've been doing in our life. Now we are in a half of life or maybe near to the edge of our time. When we are in the middle of mind confusing we always been asking ourselves what have we done in our life till we get in to some complicated situation. If there any problem or hard situation we should face we always want to runaway from the fact. Or are we waiting for a miracle that will solve our hard time and wipe away all the hard time? The answer is some maybe yes but some may not. 

Miracle came not easily in our life. We should work something to get it or maybe if we are lucky it will come by itself to our life depend on our situation. It is not easy to create miracle but it is not hard to make it happen.

 Don't wait for a miracle happen. Miracle came from ourselves. From the beginning till the end of time only we ourselves can create miracle happen to our life. Let yourself be miracle.

*A STORY*

Once upon a time there was a little tiny boy named Cupid. Cupid was about 4 years old. Cupid came from small village called Angels. He lost his family member since he was a baby. Now, Cupid live with his uncle.

One day Cupid runaway from his uncle's house cause his uncle always said that he was stupid. Cupid walk alone down the hill. He found a little talking bird named Lucy.

"Where do want to go Cupid?" The bird says.

"I want to go away far from Angels. I runaway from my scary uncle. I dislike him so much."

"Why you dislike him so much Cupid?"

Then cupid answers, "I hate him cause he called me stupid."

"So where do you plan to go Cupid?" Lucy keep asking.

"I want to go far far away from my uncle. I want to be free." he answered.

"So where do you think is the best place to be free?" Lucy asked again.

"I hope I can be like you. You got a wings and I want it too. I want to fly freely." he said.

"Beware of what you want Cupid.Your words is a prayer for those peoples who live in Angels." The bird whispered.

"I don't care. I want wings and fly." Cupid pray for his words.

Few minutes later......

"Argghhhh! It's hurt!" Cupid shouting.

Lucy flew away. she was so scared. 

Cupid fell on the ground. The night is coming. The moon and stars does appeared. The wind blowing. An owl whisper. All in dark watching for a little poor boy named Cupid. He was cursed by nature.

Cupid is not dying but he was dreaming. In his dream an angel came to him and rescue him from all the pain he felt. 

'Dear little boy... you will be a cupid forever. You will make two heart became one. You will choose between a man and a woman and they will be in love with this arrow I gave you. You will responsible with their heart and will be blame by them if the love you gave them is not real. I cursed you for living Angels and now you will be a cupid forever.....'

When Cupid awake he became the real cupid. With wings and arrow. Lucy came and see him around. But Cupid did not recognize her anymore. He fly away from Angels and became a Stupid Cupid forever.

*THE END*

IF

If i can turn back time will i change all the bad become good?
If i can turn back time will i be brave to say the truth?
If i can turn back time will i be by your side to wipe the tears?
If i can turn back time will i be the one to cheer your life?
If i can turn back time will i be the only in your heart forever?
But................
If i can turn back time will the good always be the same?
If i can turn back time will the truth bring happiness?
If i can turn back time will the tears solve all problem?
If i can turn back time will you promise to cheer up my life?
If i can turn back time will your heart be mine forever?

Healing song...

let it out....

when u feel angry don't harm yourself or anybody around you... take your paper and pen start to write anything you want... let the paper and pen be with u...
when u feel sad don't act like u are happy.... start to go some quiet and nice place (your bedroom) cry out loud... let the tears be with u...
when u feel lonely don't be alone in your room... take a walk outside talk some with your family member or hang out with nice friends.... let your close person cheer u up...

music...

Music can heal your soul....when i am down and weak only music can regenerate my enery... i will feel free.... reduce tension with music... no matter what happen life also like music...create your own world with song... go into the deepen and feel all the nice music..... your mind controlling yourself..... ^_^

time remain.......

Time always running.... will past and the past is still past.... in life everything about time.... what we've been through all in time and will be past by.....